can i say something that i haven’t really been able to say with complete confidence before?
i’m good at what i do.
everyone’s got their insecurities, and there shouldn’t be any doubt with those of you that know me that i’ve got mine. i struggle with my craft and my career and my creative vision and my personal progression all.the.time. and i too often find myself raising a brow at my work or my pursuits as if they aren’t good enough. it’s never good enough. i always want more. i always want to be more.
but when my client tells me she’s always loved how awesome i am, when she squeals and bursts with excitement as i show her an image on the back of my camera, when she tells me again and again how happy she is that i’m here shooting for her today, it begins to take a different shape in my mind.
i’ve come to a place in my work where i’m comfortable in any situation you might throw me. i’ve come to a point where i know how to get people to relax and feel at ease in front of the often uncomfy camera. i’ve developed enough to where i can create a good image just about anywhere. and i’m 100% confident in all that i’m able to do.
and even though i may still want more, want to be more, i know my clients know that i know what i’m doing. and i know i’m good at what i do. and that’s good enough for now.